Worries, Plans and Hopes

The pressure keeps building. University is pretty much dead in the water for me from the look of things. I'm investigating a number of alternate goals - I need to get back to writing - luckily I have a lot of free time this week so I will be able to take it on.

I'm really worried about my business idea. As those who have talked to me over the last couple of weeks will know, Issie and I have been looking at going into business - but the universe seems determined to throw as many obstacles in our way as possible. Wargames Supply opening up has been a primary source of stress. It is hard to watch someone step in and swipe something you'd hoped to achieve right out from under your feet. It has also been really hard to remain objective about people's excitement about the shop. Because it ends up feeling like a betrayal where there is none occurring.

With our primary investor out for the count, myself in no position to source the cash needed for the idea without sacrificing the whole deal to someone else - it's tough time at the moment. I'm beginning to think it may be better to let it go and try and chase something else instead.

I may just do as Morgue has done and take up a creative arts income and focus on getting one of my novels started. Or begin writing a roleplaying game... which reminds me... I must write to Arc Dream and see if they would be willing to allow me to utilise Star ORE as the core for my game...

So what are Conan's hopes?

Business: Somehow source the 20-30K needed to start this unique approach to a business. The idea is there and it is financially viable. It just needs to get the seed capital - but without my having to hand control of the business over.

Book: Get started on a real book. Find a way to break through this writer's block. I need to pick something and stick to it. I'm thinking that Evin Shir is going to be the easiest to get going. Here's hoping I can get it started...

Relationships: *sigh* Somehow I have to start socialising with circles where I'm not the only gay guy, or where there are very few guys who are interested in me.

In a surprise twist, Dad has provided me with a possible solution to the business problem. Depending on how negotiations go this week - I may have a surprise announcement to make... ;)

Edit: *sigh* I really need to proof read my posts more often. :D

Love and Huggles

Conan

Currently Reading: WoD: Mysterious Places
Currently Playing: Unknown Armies - To Go;Exalted
Mood: Getting Proactive!